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GOODBYE 2015, HELLO 2016...


HAPPY NEW YEAR YOU LOVELY BUNCH!  
I have been SO busy out and about the last few days that I haven't had a chance to sit down and do this post, so please forgive me but I am here now!! 
2015 was a HUGE year for me & my family, it really was a rollercoaster of emotions that saw us go up and down to the worst days of our lives and back up again.
The best thing I did in 2015 was start my blog. I was in a really, really dark place this time last year, suffering with post-natal depression and severe anxiety for the past 18 months had really started to take a toll on me, I knew something had to change to better not only my life and personal development but my fiance & daughters life too. The only time I ever left the house was to get drunk and the rest of the time I spent in my pyjamas with the curtains shut and the doors locked at all times. I resented Justin for leaving me and going to work so much, I was so jealous that he got a break from being at home and that got to communicate with the outside world, something I couldn't do without drinking a bottle of vodka beforehand. It wasn't until the end of January 2015 when I started my blog that things started to change...

I never expected anyone to ever read my blog, other than my facebook friends out of curiosity. So when I posted and promoted my first ever post & watched the pageviews mount, it was the ultimate confidence boost and realisation of self worth that I needed to start recovering from the horrible illness that had eaten up everything that made me, me. My blog became my second baby and it has become my passion, I have been given so many wonderful opportunities and I have made so many new friends thanks to this wonderful business and community. It sounds so bloody cliche because there are a million posts like mine, but it was the BEST therapy and suddenly I got my ambition back taking me to May when I started my new job...
I work with some of the best people I have ever met in my life, I have worked with them for about 8 months now and a few of them know me better than I know myself. I am so lucky to have such an understanding, patient manager and now friend in Amy and I have found a best friend for life in Sophie, two people who made the lows in 2015 easier and have given me some of the best advice and guidance I could ever want or need, if you're reading this I love you both so much. 

In July our beautiful little girl Harper turned 2, it's so scary how much she has learnt and how much she has grown in 2015. She is the baby of both mine and Justin's family but she just isn't very 'baby' anymore. She started nursery this year and is the baby there too, her cousin Oliver has taken her under his wing at preschool and watching the way they play together and communicate is just magical. She is so advanced with her speech and gives us as much attitude as she does love and affection, she's just the best human being to ever walk the earth and I really can't wait to see what 2016 brings for her.

Although the first half of the year was full of highs we were due some bad news, the worst news. Justin's dad passed away on July 9th 2015. He was such a family man and would do anything for his 3 boys & wife, Christine. We all miss him so much and we are so conscious of the fact that we need to keep his memory alive for Harper, who he loved and cherished more than anything in the world.
The second half of the year has just been a blur of working hard and kind of falling off the wagon with my blog which I didn't enjoy, my routine was a bit all over the place and I found less time to be passionate and creative, which made me stressed and unhappy for a small period of time. Now I am back on track and I have set some ambitious blogging goals for 2016 which I am looking forward to focusing on.
2015 was a great year for me & my career, my personal life not so great but I still ended it with the two most important people in my life loving and supporting me with everything that they have and for that I am so so grateful. I put on a shit tonne of weight and my fertility issues are plaguing me massively as I move into 2016 but I know I need to be positive and remain motivated to achieve the things I know we deserve and ultimately are the most important. 
Thank you to every single person in my life for making the good times in 2015 the greatest, every single person that follows me on social media, every single one of my blogging friends who know the struggles, every single person who has read or reads my blog thank you, thank you, thank yoooou. 
I hope you all have a beautiful, prosperous and healthy 2016.



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